One more thing before I step down from my soap box...
I believe I read that you have two boys? So do I. What keeps me going is that the work I am doing on me is benefiting them. I always thought those plaques that said stuff like Be what you want your children to be were just cliques, but now I realize it is so true. No matter what we try and teach our children, what they learn is what they SEE.
Me 54 DS19 and DS17 Married 06/1989 Divorced 01/2011