Angelica - you started my fountain all over again...and I am trying to get ready to go out. Of course, the fact that I don't have one pair of pants that fit added to the emotion. I am sorry that you are feeling low. You wouldn't know by your post -it really helped me tonight during my mini meltdown - it was beautifully written. But to answer your last question....very easy.
My girls.
David - thanks for responding...I will leave it up to the girls on whether or not they hang the stocking. That is what I dread most...what their reaction will be when we are decorating.
MrsH - after the day you are having - thanks for stopping by. We are going to start a new tradition - the girls did not want to go to in-laws house on Christmas Eve (I wasn't invited because H will be there). My D11 wants to stay home and bake cookies, so we will stay home and bake cookies after church. I am going to let them decide the menu too. I am betting on pizza. You know...that traditional Christmas Eve dinner.....
I will be okay with the decorations...I think. A lot of memories, but I will hang in there. There is one ornament that will product tears because I will give it to H - a memory of his grandmother, who I adored and have thought of a lot since the bomb. But it rightfully belongs to him and I will do the right thing and give it to him. But it will be hard....
And, by the way...I didn't care much for your H yesterday after the picture incident either. I just hate it when the kids are hurting....
My mini meltdown is over. I am going out, if I can find something to wear (I have dropped another size).
And no...I will not be partying with H's divorce lawyer....
