I am so impressed with your positive attitude and the list of things you are doing to make sure your end of the M is improving. I chuckled a little when you said you had a hard time with non-fiction. Me too...I think I've actually finished more non-fiction in the last year and a half than I did in my entire life up to that point, including school It feels so empowering to gain knowledge that can be put to use to better myself.
I identify with your worry that if H has been unfaithful multiple times before, the odds of him slipping again increase. I think when it comes to that, we have to realize we've done the best we can and decide if we can work with that weakness in them or not. Temptation will come again, I fear. But hopefully our efforts now and going forward will give them something to hang on to and strength to overcome. If not, we can know we gave it everything we could.
It feels so empowering to gain knowledge that can be put to use to better myself. 
