CVA - Figuring out What's Next

[Not Much Left]

Hey folks

Tough day yesterday. 2 days of no sleep and a cold took me pretty far down physically. Got some sleep though, feeling better this am.

W was super nice to me yesterday, pretty certain the goal in her mind is "good friends" as we get divorced. Her best friend called and asked if we wanted to meet out for dinner with families. Quite frankly I was in no mood to hang out with W and her friend and their family but I went anyway. My attitude more than likely reflected it. Kids were acting up and before my W showed I was not happy. She shows up and first words are "what's wrong"...oh brother...please

I make no convo with her, smile and focus on kids. All this clearly a change I am not just faking and she noticed but I don't care. I am writing this to demostrate to those who might read it that there **is a line** and I have crossed it. It took my W to file but so be it. I don't believe she will ever be what I want.

I am sure a little affect and affirmation Thursday night helped me and I'm glad for that. Not going to dinner anymore, like sunny once told her H, last night was probably the last family dinner I will go to. Very sad, I just have noe desire to keep utting myself in a position that makes me so uncomfortable that it affects my R with my kids. Sure I could go, but at least knowing myself I think is a good step.

Tonight "could" be intersting!?! Gonna hang out with a new friend and her friends, safety in numbers. YES, I will be careful

Thanks for everyones continued thoughts, support, praise and yes 2x4's.

C