bluejay, welcome aboard. You're wise and I hope you stick around and tell us more of your story. I do know the tears over the hurt of rejection... and I'm not even married to the guy and no children are involved. I'm just stupid.
This thread is SO directed straight at me! These are all the things I need to hear.
It's ironic (and possibly a message straight from God) that Bluejay is directly related to my bf's primary nickname. In fact, when I saw the name, I had this fleeting thought...
Hi LP! Thanks for the kind words! I'm sorry you're struggling with this too. I can't stand to hear about HD women with LD men; it's just such a kick in my teeth. It's like the fates saying "you *could* be happy, there's plenty of women out there who would love to be with you and give you what you need, and get what you need to give. But instead..."
I'd like to tell you I woke up this morning and G-d was at the foot of my bed telling me I had to give you sign from up on high; but in reality I woke up, um, rarin' to go, and sorted myself out, if you catch my drift. And every time I do that, which is just about every day, I die a little inside. Sorry, I'm bitter and rambling...
As for the nickname, well, I don't know squat about your BF, but I have about a million connections to the word "bluejay".
