Get Me On A Smoother Ride....Need Advice #7

[SueS]

Husband & Paul-

Thank you for responding. I know that I need to stop thinking about the things I can't control. That's always been a problem for me, even outside of things with H.

I set some goals in my mind this morning, but didn't get them here online.

1- #1 again is take care of myself. I almost feel worse physically today than yesterday.

2- Deal positively with my co-workers. My mood has caused me to be a bit angry with some of them lately for the issues they keep bringing to me. Thought that would possibly bring up my PMA.

I know it's not a huge list, but that's about all I could muster for today.

I have to stop picturing some things in my mind. I had done a good job with Rob's Icky Bandaid analogy when thinking of OW. But for some reason, I feel like this thing is more physical than I had imagined. Don't know why, just gut feeling. Or, could be the discussion here on the board a week or so ago about my incorrect assumption that my H wouldn't be so sexually active with me if he were having an active PA with OW. H has tried to be intimate with me the past few nights. I denied him once and was intimate the other time.

I need to get myself well. Hopefully this weekend will bring a lot of rest. I need to tell my H that I need his help this weekend with D3. I just need rest. This time being sick has brought me down a lot more than it typcially would.

So, H did get home at a decent time last night. Not sure where he was. He had some coffee with him. I was awake, so I got up and said hello. He was looking for something to eat. I told him that he could have the stir fry that he'd taken out for me to eat, as I wasn't hungry for dinner. I walked out and then walked back in. I said....Thank you for taking that out for me, I just wasn't hungry. His said...Well, I don't care that you didn't eat it. I said, that may be, but I just wanted to say thank you because you didn't have to take anything out at all.

We were all awake bright and early this morning. D3 was playing and H was reading a book. I talked to H for a brief minute about a bill and then left. I told them both good-bye. D3 gave me a hug & kiss. H gave a mumbled good-bye.

Well, I need to get going. Not sure if I'll be on this weekend. I'll try.

Thank you all again! You're so wonderful!!

SueS