Time for healing without closing the door

[betteroffvsmost]

*sigh*.....man, how do I stop letting him push my buttons.

By not reacting. By not defending yourself.
I know it is much more difficult than said, but it's what I try to do and try to have done.
You felt bad about the camera and we all know he knows that.....but he's milking it....and that's easy, because you are reacting to it.

I really recommend the "Act as if..." (if you can't find it let us know).
I don't mean this for H's sake, I mean it for your sake.
Act as if the buttons don't work (don't react, don't defend, etc.).....follow the other "As if" guidelines as well.
Start doing it ......and it gets easier as you go along (could take a couple of weeks to get comfortable with it).
Does wonders for your confidence as well.