You are doing really well staying strong in the face of his full-court press. It's the right thing for YOU, don't forget that - what's best for him is SECONDARY to what's best for you...
Thank you. I'm trying. I will try to keep that in my head today. I need to get showered and ready so I can make this bus in order to get across town and pay our mortgage. I still need to see if there's enough money available even.
He is saying I am selfish and that he can't believe what I'm doing after all he's done for me... staying married to me so I have health care, making sure I had a roof over my head, making sure I got on my feet, blah blah blah. He says he feels like he got f#@ked and is being used and played by me. I know better. I am the one that screwed myself in many ways by putting myself last in this M. I haven't felt successful exactly at getting on my feet, but I've done my best in the situation. I've tried to maintain some mental health and I made sure the bills got paid even though he was spending all of our money. I've lived off credit cards over this last year. Yes, I was enabling, I see that. I was working hard in many ways not to be, and I know I wasn't simply failing at that, but he hasn't exactly helped me out.
Sorry for the negativity. What's best for him is secondary to what's best for me. Got it.
Thank you so much. It means a lot. I just want to sit here and cry but I've got things to do.
Me: 37 M: 14 yrs Separated 10/06; Filed for D 12/07 Life is good.
