Just great....great big long phone call. Couple of times I just put the phone down because I couldn't listen to him tell me that I am playing games with him. He says I purposely made sure the camera was full to make him look bad.
Me taking d6 to teh beach on Sunday was wrong and 'everyone he talks to thinks so'. I told him several times to tell me when he can make time to see d6 and let me know and I will do what I need to to ensure it. I told him I wanted him to leave me alone but that I didn't want him to abandon his daughter. He seriously thinks I'm trying to turn her against him and set things up so that he looks like he doesn't care. Chr1st. Nothing I say gets through.
I was almost hysterical in tears on the phone, it got so I put the phone on the couch and he kept on talking...I don't think he realised I wasn't listening, I couldnt' listen any more.
After I told him I couldn't think straight any more and I was going to go, I hung up. He called back, I put the phone back on the couch and cried. after a while I picked it up to see if maybe he had calmed down and we could make up but no. It got so I said to him that I don't feel safe (I think that's what I said). I know I did say, "you didn't see your eyes on sunday, you weren't looking at the golf club sitting on your shoulder,.... you weren't looking at the window wondering if you really could put me through the window like you were threatening to. ....Leave me alone. But don't abandon your daughter" He hung up then and then after about ten minutes I rang Crisis Care hotline and spent another 20mins crying on the phone to the chick on the other end.
I hate this....I just want to feel safe, but I want my d6 to have a daddy. I'm trying so hard to not bad mouth him and I think I've been doing a pretty good job. He's the one that is not doing the good job. He's the one not taking responsibility for his actions. He's the one blaming me for everything that's wrong with him, he's saying that I'm doing all this on purpose.
