She doesn't know if she wants a divorce

[Goldy07]

My wife and I have been married for 9 years( will be 10 this coming march) and have 3 wonderful kids together. We have been separated for 6 months now. She has her own apartment now. It feels like things keep going back and forth. She has been talking with another guy and I had been talking with another woman. She says they are just friends but I'm not so sure. I will admit my wrong doing by admitting that I did sleep with the woman I was talking to once. But in my defense my wife had been telling me that she wanted a divorce and no longer wanted to be with me. I was ready to start moving on with my life, after all we had already been separated for 6 months. Well my wife just happened to show up at my house while me and this other woman were just talking while walking my dog. I was feeling really frustrated and she is easy to talk to. I don't know if it was the jealousy thing or she woke up, but now she is saying she wants to go to counseling to see if anything is left to save, but she isn't sure if this is what she wants. I had told this other woman what was going on and explained to her that I needed to give up our friendship for my wife's sake. my wife won't do the same for me. Right now I can't talk to her without getting ignored in some way. I am beginning to think that she doesn't want me to be happy or since she doesn't want me, nobody else can either. I do love my wife but have grown very tired of all of this. My wife says we need to go to counseling but won't set anything up and won't tell me a time she is free to go so I can set something up. Any advice?