MMF, Thank you so much for your post. I am going to have to print it to really drink it all in. But we are definitely on the same page. I have been standing for my marriage even though I have been officially D'd since June of '06. I believe in the covenant that I made. From the outside looking in I have to admit that I understand why others think I am crazy.
At some point though, no matter how hard we may try and pray for the restoration of our marriage we need to rise up out of the ashes and start moving on with our lives.
I listen to a lot of Joel Osteen, and I have his dvd series "Letting Go of the Past" and he refers to this. He indicates that we should not mourn forever (my words) ... there is a time for mourning but then it is time for us to rise out of the ashes and be warriors and move on to become the great person that God wants us to become.
My problem is that I do not want to believe that I am in a state of mourning. Mourning in my mind happens when there is a "death" or "loss". If there is a death or loss then there is no hope for restoration. And as of yet I am not able to give up the hope that my family will be able to be restored.
