Well I am feeling much better today. Went to s15's parent conference last night and was told what an amazing kid he is. Every mom loves to hear that. All of his teachers adore him and that makes me feel so good. They tell me how mature he is and how his humor makes him so easy to be around. I think he is channeling his anger toward H by diving into his school work and working hard at swim practice.
On the H front...he called me this morning to check in. He smoothed things over at work so he still has his job and he has an interview for a real job tomorrow. MOW wanted him to get a real job with benefits so he is not tide to me. Who knows what will happen. He said he would let me know and I told him whatever happens...I hope he ends up with a job he loves.
I really, at this point, am still standing but am not worrying. It is all in God's hands and out of my control. I am a little concerned about Thanksgiving. I gave my dad my blessing to go to my brother's for a few days. I really feel it will be good for him to get away from this all.
H had mentioned wanting to make thanksgiving for us all but I don't think s15 would be into it.
I did ask h if I could drop the kids off to where his family would be and they can have thanksgiving with them (it would be easier for H and s15 to coexist in a crowd), but that is when he said he thought we would all spend it together.
We never resolved this and once again I will let God take control. If it is just the kids and i so be it. If something else happens...it happens. I just don't know if it will be all of us with H's family. I don't want anyone to feel uncomfortable and after the events of the weekend I am not sure how his sisters will react to him. UGH...why did I believe he would hurt himself...
Anyway, that's about it. Oh, the financial papers that I got aren't too bad. Once again my guardian angel dad is going to help me out. I don't know what I would do without him.
Snodderly, if you are out there I am thinking of you and praying for your dad. You have been on my mind a lot.
Thanks for letting me journal.....
If anyone has any thanksgiving advice.....please let me know. Mopsey
