really?? then why do I think everyone just thinks I'm that pain in the butt that says it like it is???
so I had a c appointment today....to say I left upset would be minimizing things....
h went 3 weeks ago and some of the things he had said then though I knew them didn't rest well with me.
h having had these feelings for ow...doesn't know if he can have them again..
well eventually I talked to h about it...he was very comforting...and didn't recall saying it that way...
h came home because he was missing something...I guess I want him to realize the feelings tied to ow were typical of an a and not that SHE was something special...maybe he does and that's why he's home but I'm searching for words from him instead of actions...and the words that he has said (the neg ones) keep circling like hawks.
h said he will not come out and say things...he is being subtle and not so subtle (the phone, the clothes brought home from the apartment) and things will just fall into place.
we have an appointment to go together to c in a few weeks...
I let h know that I'd like to hear him say ily once in a while...but also let him know that it might make me cry but it's not a bad cry...
h let me know why he's keeping the other customers and ow...a public relations type thing...I understand...h is hoping that ow will sell and that he'll only have to deal with her for part of the year...if that doesn't happen then he will address it then (seems he wants her to go away too) h said he will let the guys take care of that street and if there is something he HAS to be there for he will do what he needs to do and go to the next house asap...he has no intentions of talking with her...also reminded me that he is very capable of going about business...it would then be the pressure she would put on him..wonder if she has when he has been there to plow..she does after all think he's in love with her.
so anyway....I'm glad that I called h after the c appointment (I didn't at first I called friends to talk to but no one was around...he is who I should have talked to but was reluctant because it sometimes gets me in the wrong direction)
