What a good year this has been.....

[forever21]

Okay. I am trying to wade through this. I called the L's office. His assistant is not helpful on the phone. But I liked her in person, and she is going to check with the L and get back to me.... or he might. There were no openings in his schedule until Monday. It sounds like his offer to let me hire him by the hour without retaining him is not normal practice for him. A good sign for me, I guess.

I just read through every word of the emails my H sent. There is a lot of stuff there. Much of it BS. It is working on me to the extent that it makes me wonder if I should be considering some "deal" with him right now. It's really unfortunate he didn't let me know much earlier on that he was planning on trying to purchase this house. It'd been more likely that we could have worked something out. Doubt we can work now, with this kind of rush. I felt mad about that for a moment earlier while I was reading his spew, but I let go of that real quick. It's simply very unfortunate and not my fault at all. I can use to be validated on that. I need the reminders, to hear it. Well, don't "need" it, but it's really helpful.

I'm gonna share just the ending paragraph from his last email here. He says any divorce attorney in this state would jump at his offer, btw. Okay, here goes.....
"I will fight to the bitter end to make this work, to have something, to let you have something also. But please don't make me fight for this until I am bitter. That will do neither of us any good. We have worked too hard for that because if I have no choice and am left with no compromise and backed into a corner I will just say f#@k it. I have nothing now nor nothing to look forward to if we can't make this work. So why at that point would I even care? I would just say f#@k it and piss everything away because I will be left with no pot to even piss in. I in NO way want that to ever be the case...."

So, this is a good example of where he's coming from. I know, I'm not backing him into a corner. I did send a text to him saying that I'm sorry he put himself in this position. H's saying he'd sign a quit claim on our house, so I could have all the equity in it. I don't know that there really is a lot right now, with our HELOC on top of the mortgage. He also stated in one of the emails that he will never leave me high and dry with payments, EVER. Well, he's already done that. He's irritating.

I hope this L can help me, because this is starting to make me feel like I should be making a deal with H. H wants to know what I need. He says he would do anything to take any risk away for me. Without talking to the L again, I don't know if this is an option. I really need legal advice.