What a good year this has been.....

[forever21]

Thanks, girlie!!! I missed you too. It was great to talk with you today! You're doing great. Thanks for listening!!!

Uggg. I am not clear what to do right now.

I'm going to go do some stream-of-consciousness journaling after I journal some here, as that oftentimes helps my brain organize all the pieces. H is offering all of this stuff right now by email. He sent them in the middle of the night. Fortunately, he hadn't tried calling from shortly after midnight until just a bit ago. I haven't listened to any of the voicemails, but just read the emails. I'm thinking I should reply.

I don't like how he's going about things though. It still looks to me like he's trying to scare me into doing things his way. He's still acting like a child. He says I'm "doing this to" him, and to please not "make" him act so pathetic and have to beg for something he wants and thinks he deserves. He is so desperate for this to go through, and he's promising a lot in return. The thing is, none of that does any good without some signed contracts and even then he could just change his mind.... and though I don't understand the bankruptcy laws, my understanding is he could file for that and walk away from those agreements.

H said he only has until the end of this week for this deal. Not much time. It seems like the perfect time to negatiate some things, but I'm not clear whether I should be. Uggg.

I question whether I understood the L. Did he think I should try to do mediation before or after filing for D? I guess I can just call his assistant and tell her I want to retain him as my L, and go from there. Well, mediation can't be scheduled on this short of notice so that wouldn't help for this right now, but maybe the L could draw up some agreements.???? I don't know. I feel kind of stupid, like I didn't understand everything yesterday. It just wasn't a cut and dry case, for the L even.