Received one more child support check in the mail yesterday - now we're just one month behind and hopefully the state will start the garnishment shortly...
Ex has been slowly moving his stuff out, smelling like a French whore and dressed up when he arrives.
On a personal note - my family is all getting sick. My aunt with the cancer - well it's still there, she's not doing great. I need to go see her but don't know if I "can".....
My uncle went into the hospital yesterday to have a growth removed from his throat - yep, cancer. They had to take his voicebox and he starts chemo soon.
My grandma went in to have a growth checked/biopsied as well and PRAISE GOD hers was benign.
The stress is taking me over.......I'm feeling it bring me down.
So ... some positives. Booted the ex-SIL out! Peanut is doing pretty good in school, her attitude is pretty good. She did ask me Sunday if I would take her dad back. I explained to her that #1, daddy has a new girlfriend so that's not possible and #2 I understood that she wanted us back together because I wanted that too for my parents, but that sometimes parents are better apart and that's how her dad and I are. Better parents apart. Or I"m a better mom w/o him around. Then she says she doesn't like that he sleeps with her :| .... I asked how she knew that...she said she asked and he said they do sometimes. IDIOT!!!!!!!!!!!!
So there's me in a nutshell...
OK - I lied. I wanted to add one more thing. I feel like I'm somehow a bad person because I don't "care" more for my ex. I don't wish him harm, but something in me really did die and I don't miss him, don't wish to be with him, don't long for him........nothing. Is that normal? Am I defective?
....Understand, that I can't, not be what I am I'm not the milk, and Cheerios in your spoon ~ Avril Lavigne ~ ..."Nobody's Fool"...
and he starts chemo soon.
