Calling All Cats :)

[cat03]

thanks again LN, I feel like I'm loosing it sometimes (just a little :P )
I think I have made my peace with the fact that I would do just fine without him, I can conjure that thought. I just know the kids, specially the older one would take it real hard.

When I mentioned adultery, I was refering to myself, I know there is no contact with op at all., it didn't end good, H changed his number 2 times and that was that. Online guy is also on my same boat (i know, he says he is but who knows) and I think we both relate with each other because our partners are lacking emotional bonding with us (don't know if he is married, we dont talk about our Rs in detail, just on passing, for a few secs). We mainly just joke around, and that's the level we both want to keep it, no strings attached, no expectations.

I was racking my brain this morn, dont' want another C in which H is quiet for unending minutes and prob feeling under the gun. I thought about giving him a notebook and ask him to write down 1)what he wants to happen in the M 2)how should we go about reaching the goals mentioned on #1
That way, at least we'll have some plan of action, H is big on writing things down (I found out about the A by the dozes of letters he had written about that R) so it should help. He did jab at me by mentioning how I had read his private thoughts when I suggested that last week, but then agreed it was a good idea.

My C does take insurance, otherwise we'd be broke! thank heavens for that.

Will try to cool off and find happiness on my own.