I need support

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S-inlaw e-mailed me that she bought D8 concert tickets for xmas. I have had a problem with her for some time, she is an enabler. She takes H out at least once a week drinking, constantly on the phone with him. If she wasn't related she would be OW. Anyway, I am pissed at her for what I see as her interference in my marriage. Not that I think she caused it, don't get that impression. But didn't help. I purposely didn't answer the e-mail as I have been keeping a low profile rather than battle. She e-mailed again today asking for a response, saying that his family is there for me and that I shouldn't be staying away. Oh, and don't cut off my nose to spite my face. That got me. I responded that I did not cut off my nose, he cut it off of me. I said I would like nothing more than to have my marriage and sanity back but am told it is a pipe dream. That it is all I can do to live my miserable Fing life without killing myself. I told her only one family member has ever contacted me to see how I was. So much for the family being there for me. BS! Then I said I will end it there before I say something I may regret. I could've said so much more. I am sure she will share that with him. He told me no one called me because I "burnt my bridges" with some people. Well yeah, he doesn't see these people as a problem like I do as they are his drinking/partying/stay away from me enablers. And I have held my tongue about it, keeping quiet from them as I am not generally the confronting type. This is all so stressful!