you can tell me it's not about ow...but I can tell you anyone who knowingly paricipates in a r with a married person is aiding a criminal act!
I like this paritcular ow was lonely and unfulfilled in my r. before I stayed home with kids men made advances at me...asked me out for lunch etc...I flatley refused...I may have been unhappy but I WAS MARRIED!!! end of story!!!
I am mad at h for deceiving me...
I know that h would not have ever walked out the door no matter how unhappy he was if not for ow. and that is fact. he could no longer lie to me...could no longer live with his guilt so he left to persue the route of his guilt, pitiful ow.
why do I know feel just as pitiful as ow??? why do I feel like less of a woman for accepting that h has done this?? why do I feel like I am worthless for accepting h's behaviour and helping him to justify it??
I want ow to no longer be a customer...no questions asked...no waiting to see if she sells her house so that he doesn't drop the rest of the street for no reason...just drop her a$$, we don't need what little money he makes from her and certainly the loss of the money is worth the comfort in our home having her gone.
I really wish that I did go to her door the other day when I was on her street...I really wish I did!!! but for h's sake I did not!
I'm actually glad she's sick...sadly and very un christianly I feel she deserves it!!!!
this really would be much easier to deal with had h just let her go upond disclosure last year and not deceived me and then left...that is what is making this so hard...I believed then that he wasn't talking to her...I believed then that we were working on things...I believed then that things were getting better..but they weren't h was just pretending...while all along still seeing ow...
is h still seeing ow now???
I have no way to know...
maybe he needs to throw something else out the window!
maybe he needs to stop thinking about getting rid of the apartment and just do it!
maybe he needs to stop thinking about asking me to put my rings back on and just do it!
maybe h is simply waiting to see if ow will go through with her divorce and then he will leave...if he does I feel sorry for him...she's sure to ruin his life!!! just look what she's done to her h!! she has multiple ea's and yet she's leaving her h all because he didn't give her a hug?? my h is in big trouble and frankly very ignorant if he thinks life would be better with ow.
wait and see...wait and see...patience...paitence...day by day...day by day....wait and see....wait and see....
keep making me wait and see and you'll be seing yourself alone!!!
