Quote: Do take care of your husband, but don't put him first, but do take care of him, make time for him, show him you care about him and yourself.
I've done that for 14 years and the thanks I got was him making time for another woman...I don't believe he is truly sorry for doing that to me...he is simply sorry for doing that to his "family". I feel that if we didn't have kids...h would still not be home...and honestly part of me feels that if we didn't have kids....I would not have wanted him home after this.
h still plans to keep ow as a customer...that is rubbing salt in a wound that has not yet heald.
I am brought back to the place I was last nov upon discovering ow in the first place...
I like everything that is happening around here...I like the time we are spending together...I like the fact that if I ask h will go out with me...h does talk to me about work etc.
but I don't like the fact that h still holds feelings for ow..
yes he can say..my feelings for her are irrelevant...they obviously aren't that much because I came home to you didn't I.
but I don't want this woman around at all...I don't want her as a customer and I honestly want h to despise ow..I want him to see her as the filthy, selfish, inconsiderate little twit that she was is and will always be...h has said that he's dissapointed in himself...but still holds no ill toward her and I feel he should...she was not a victim...she knew what she was doing all along.
h talks in circles at times...
one day he will say to me...I am who I am...it's never enough for you...
and then another day he will tell me that he doesn't blame me for wanting to give up that I've pulled all the punches and if he were giving as much and getting as little return he probably would give up to...so wich is it..he's giving his all or he knows he isn't giving his all???
