You know, LL, it is not easy what we do...fighting and putting all of our energy into what we believe to be right and just. I am ever-inspired by the perseverence of those on the BB, including yourself. As our Ses are in pain, so are we...yet we choose to temporarily overlook that pain until the right time. Eventually, we do have to evaluate this pain and our life and decide what actions to take...and if we are getting what we want from our R...or if we expect to get what we want from our R.
I do believe when we get to the point where we are in Piecing that, over some time, we should expect our Ses to come around a bit...to give more to the R...and to "drive" for a while. Remaining sedate just isn't an option anymore because we've worked hard, know what it takes to make an R work, and expect the same in return.
Perhaps LL needs to take some time to herself, recharge and rethink? Sometimes when dealing with the day-to-day machinations of homelife--kids, H, meals, cleaning, schedules--it's hard to see the big picture. Maybe a spa weekend by yourself?
