trusting that it's for real.

[sage]

Charcoal -- Wow. Hell of a post. I've read lots of your stuff on the boards -- seems like you have come a LONG way in your understanding of your sitch! Please stick around and share your thoughts! I love the power of your words.

Your H obviously knows you're angry at him. How's he supposed to be an "open book" if he knows he's going to have to feel pain for doing what he did. He probably still feels pain (hurt, anger at you?) for having to look somewhere else to get his needs met. I know you don't want to hear that hon, it ain't right, but it's still something to think about. Of course he defends his OW. His OW loves him and only wants the best for him (guessing, I don't know). You, on the other hand are still begging and demanding he feel something other that what he feels.

The above knocked my sox off. I'm going to copy these words and put them in my palm pilot so I can read them every day.

Thanks, Charcoal.

Sage