Calling All Cats :)

[cat03]

thank you guys)))))))))))))))))) i really need a push now, *sigh* I have been trying too hard, have to remember about "cheeseless tunnels".
Yes, I need to detach more, I started to today, just asked 2 questions about his work (he seldom asks about mine) just to have something to talk about, and left it at that.
He does notice sometimes and says "what's wrong?", sigh**, and then I come out as the pushy one if I say what's wrong, I'm supposed to be alright all the time, i think he forgets how much this sitch affects me and maybe he rather not see it.

I do realize that adultery is not only physical, I remind myself of that daily. I know that meeting/talking irl with online guy would be a very bad idea and dont' have plans to do so.

LN, your advice is always needed

PS, you are prob right, it is just so hard to find the right T. With any luck I will find another good C since my H doesn't feel confortable with our MC now, I do like this C so much, but no sense going if H doesn't get anything out of it. He is going next Tues and i did tell him he didn't have to, he said "I'll go, let's just see what happens" as if the C is supposed to pull a rabbit out of a hat or somethign.
Well, a C session is better than nothing i guess...

Thanks for your support, I do need it. I don't want to give up, I know that much, I just need to change my modus operandi a bit :P