LL - I was reading through your thread a little bit and I just sensed anger and resentment towards H. You listed all the things that you did to show H that you loved him - are you trying to love him the way you want to be loved or are you trying to love him the way he needs to be loved? Are you willing to let go of your anger and resentment and find out what you can do to make H more comfortable expressing himself the way you want him to? Does he even know how you want to be loved - maybe he's trying to love you the way he wants to be loevd? Just curious.