so being the nice w that I am and also having learned that h likes it when I offer...I will be folding, stuffing and sealing and stamping the season proposals for h's customers this year...
of course I did not just sit down and start folding...of course I looked through the pile of alphabetically organized stack of season proposals to see if there was one there for ow...upon seeing that there is not one there for ow I scanned the addresses to see if the others on the street are there...
they are...h is keeping the street....
does this mean to that h is keeping ow as a customer but was simply thoughtful (or thoughtless) enough to take her proposal out so that I would not see it?? fold it and send it along on his own or did he stop having her as a customer??
I am not happy to see that h will still be working on her little culdisac...
I don't know what to do??
the season is about to begin for him...
he will be stressed by it...
I am stressed by it...
do I bother to ask if she's still a customer??
do I bother to note that I see the others still are??
do I simply wait and see as I continue to fold and stuff for him over the season (if he lets me) and find that one day out of forgetfullness he leaves her bill in with the rest??
I am at a loss...
if I had a key to the office I'd sneak down there at night and use his computer to see if he plans to keep her on but hide it from me...
a distance has started to grow again...
I don't know if that distance is a by product of my being busy with doing my own thing this week or of h's just being under pressure with the start up of the season...the termination of the "business" r with ow...or the continuation of the "business" r with ow and his hiding it...
