Angelica and MMF, Thanks for the support. I am really needing it.
Off and on during this journey I have had short periods when I have gone dark (for my own sanity). However, when I went dark ... the xh did everything in his power to break the darkness... and I bit every time. If I were able to go back in time I would not have been sucked in so easily. I saw the pursuit as a sign of him "wanting" me. And that may be the case, but my giving in so easily has allowed him to continue to have it both ways. My mistake was that he was never really had to see the pain he has caused and the lonliness of not being with his family. I now believe he needed to see that ... maybe in mlc he could not have. I don't know ...
It does feel like however, that he has never had to "pay the piper" for what he put his children and his wife through.
