trusting that it's for real.

[sage]

LL -- Last week H. told me that I was too analytical -- always looking for "the answer" while he was able to let "things be". I too have been peering into the pit and looking for ways to get over or around it -- ending up stuck by the depth of it all.

I'm making a conscious decision to move "away from the pit" . I'm not sure how just yet but I know I have to do it if I'm going to feel healthy -- in this M. or out of it.

Ellie -- if you see this -- can you share some ways that you stopped feeling the need for "the fantasy of being safe" in a R?

Sage