ah! it is my seeing the pit and paying it too much attention...h knows the pit is there but tries not to see it and perhaps that is naive, perhaps that is just my thought. I know the pit is there...I know there is more out there too...I don't want to be trapped in the field feeling threatend by the pit...I want to know what's in the pit and not fear it...I want to see what is on the other side of the pit as well...I know how to build my own bridge...but I don't want to travel out there alone? perhaps I could build a stronger bridge with h...but again am faced with the question of does h see the pit...does h feel the desire to move beyond the field and if so with me??
we can each build our own bridge and come and go from the field as we wish...but when we return from our own journey will we see the field the same and be able to appreciate it together?
can we together build a strong bridge that enables us safely to pass together while keeping our field a sanctuary for ourselves.
what the hell am I talking about???
maybe h is right...maybe I am too physchological, to analytical, to philosophical...maybe h doesn't even know there is a field or a pit or another side..maybe h just lives in this world while I seek for more.
