Oh Morgan, I am so sorry. It's the sort of thing little girls talk about all the time and it just has a horrid trigger for you.
My H slept with OW on my youngest D's 8th B'bay. Now whenever my D talks about her B'day and what she wants and what theme party she wants etc I still want to be physically sick and that's with H still with me. I just couldn't believe he could pick such a memorable date. OW and her H have thae same wedding anniversary as us. These things come back and make us spin.
(((((((HUGS)))))))))
Saffie
Saffie me 46 H 46 M in 1986 D20,D18,S16,D13 H's A 01/05 to 07/06 H recommitted to M 07/06 renewed vows 09/06 Going from strength to strength
saffie, h left the twins on the day of their second birthday (before I knew about the affair) because the guy from ireland was coming into boston a day early that he had to meet with. I found out later (during my snooping days) that this was not a day he had at the hotel. the guy did not come into town early, instead, h spent it with ow. so yep, I understand that. and it is just gross.
gag.
I'm going to have to deal with it. with whatever they do. I'm starting to feel like I am holding my h hostage in a marriage he doesn't want, and that, well, just sucks. to mix a couple of metaphors, I need to gird my loins and cut bait I guess. I mean, why keep him trapped when he so very obviously doesn't want to be? maybe the closure will be enough for me, maybe it will help me move on.
although again I guess I come back to the fact that I am not hindering him from divorcing me. I've nixed mediation unless he comes up with a proposal in writing ahead of time, but he can file on me at any time. but still, for my own sake, maybe I should just let him go. maybe its not healthy for me to keep a man who is trapped.
just pondering.
on a fun note, S5 lost his 2nd tooth today. can't find it anywhere, but I'm the only one concerned with that fact. s5 is quite content to write a note to the toothfairy.
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
We did notes - took the stress away from having to move all the furniture etc trying to find it!!!!!! We just had to renegotiate when the tooth turned up again!!!!!!
They are just such sh!ts to choose these dates that are so easy to remember!!!!
Saffie
Saffie me 46 H 46 M in 1986 D20,D18,S16,D13 H's A 01/05 to 07/06 H recommitted to M 07/06 renewed vows 09/06 Going from strength to strength
its funny, h told me their affair started last october. which his cell phone records back up. but he will not tell me the exact date of their anniversary. the one thing I am grateful for is the fact that we were away in florida on our anniversary last october, or I would wonder if the reason for his secrecy here was because it was on the same date.
yep, we're writing a note for the tooth fairy. I'm calling uncle. what do english children get from the tooth fairy?
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
If she remembers they get a gold �1 coin for the first and 50p piece for every subsequent one. She is a bit forgetful and often hides the money in starnge places that requires further looking
Saffie
Saffie me 46 H 46 M in 1986 D20,D18,S16,D13 H's A 01/05 to 07/06 H recommitted to M 07/06 renewed vows 09/06 Going from strength to strength
lol, omg, saffie, I love that she hides the money sometimes.
my sister was just telling me that sometimes the tooth fairy has forgotten at her house. when that has happened, she will send the kids back up to check, and while they are there the "toothfairy" will scurry and post a note on the front door. she said she'd leave a checklist as to why the toothfairy couldn't do her job (someone was awake, out of coins for the night, etc.). that makes me laugh somehow.
but I love the idea of...maybe she left it somewhere else. hmmm, like mommy's wallet? hee.
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
it hasn't been all that long since he said it. and only a couple of weeks since my freak-out on him. it just feels like he is even more solidly gone now. I guess because I am freezing him out. even the small amount of chat we were having is just gone...he's gone. I know its self-preservation for me to go dark, I know its good for me to do it, but wow, it just feels so over now.
2008 has to be better, right?
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
well, lwb, I keep thinking, its always darkest before the dawn. our dawn is coming, it is. the tough part is not knowing whether we are at that darkest point or not...is the sun starting to rise, or is it still just setting and a whole lot more blackness is coming out way.
(wow, that sounds bleak, doesn't it?)
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
