WAW hasn't walked yet, but emotionally dead

[mako]

Today I have been better, getting over the initial shock that W is moving out. I knew it was coming of course, but it still hit me pretty hard that it was actually happening.

W came by in the morning to bring the dog back, I was in the shower so she just came in the bathroom and said she was here but had to leave, she'll call me tomorrow. Sure there was a shower door, but that was the first time in forever that one of us had been naked with the other in the room, felt almost weird.

Had a long talk with a friend today about all this, which felt good. Everyone I've talked to says I am making great progress with being more open and sharing emotions. So that's something, at least if W never comes back I'll have that to build on.

W just called, which surprised me. Told me about her day and how the dog cried all last night, I said it was cause she missed her boyfriend (me) and W laughed at that. She told me about what they planned on doing tomorrow (she's basically sightseeing w/ MIL and MIL's friend) and about a freelance job she had lined up till she gets a real job. All in all it was a good--though short--talk, basically about nothing and under 5 minutes. I will take any positive interaction at this point though.

No GALing today, I need to work late, hope I can fit in some exercise later though.