How can I top those past few responses?? We all know those feelings to different degrees. Bob said it great about chosing to trust and forgive, you have to convince your mind to let these thoughts go. It is so hard..and what you said about finding these place..amen..I too would not have known when to shut up. I keep having people tell me how well I have handled this, as most of the time seperation usually means the next step to d. Keep working on the things you know need attention..let some of the petty stuff go. Sue
Quoting lostlove: </font><blockquote><font class="small">Quote:</font><hr /> Isn't it great to have the windows open? Happy St. PAtrick's Day, LL. May the Luck of the Irish find it's way into your life.
Hi, LL,
Do I count?
Just dropping over to say hello - will come back and chat - hope some luck rubs off on you...!
Mel
It's time to live, it's time to love, it's time to do what's afraid of
It's time to breathe, time to relieve, it's time to shine
I was especially touched by the notion of "trusting with the heart...but not quite with the mind...yet". Rings true.
What a journey we are all on! What strength we have gained! Maybe we need to be patient with ourselves too...we will heal.
And LL about the midnight cookie run? Um, well, I do that myself . Sometimes when H falls asleep first, it's my chance to do some things I wouldn't otherwise...like those late night snacks...no biggie, no harm intended, just a thang .
Hang in there, your thread is an inspiration to us all.
Quoting shinybear: And LL about the midnight cookie run? Um, well, I do that myself . Sometimes when H falls asleep first, it's my chance to do some things I wouldn't otherwise...
In my case, I get on-line and come here. Of coarse, if she wakes up and she sees I'm on-line, then she gets irked, so I can't do it too often.
in-laws came over for dinner...h arrived after them...fil at upon arival and then off to the basement for a nap...mil ate with the kids and I..h arrived shortly thereafter and mil started talking to him about the state of the world and some traffic issues this am due to a freak with bombs in his car on the highway...felt like I was just watching their conversation...don't recall a greeting from h...h brought munchinks for son...il's left...h sitting watching cnn as is typical these days...got a call from buddie...don't know what they were talking about...h asked if I were going to sit on the couch with him...I did but it was odd...he on one end I on the other...h felt my discomfort?? asked what's up...I simply replied my head is full...h eventually handed me the remote and drifted off to sleep on the couch.
Like you told me, focus on the positives. Act as if... You are doing great. Something I'm going to try is to write down the small things that bother me and hide them for a week, then take them out and see if I can just throw them away. That way, I don't have to worry about them for a week, because I've put them away, rather than just dropping or ignoring them (which doesn't work very well for me). I expect that in most cases, I'll just be able to toss those little bits of paper.
I think that sometimes we just get caught up in things. The state of the world is frightening and depressing. I am sure that you are feeling the effects of it.
H still wanted you to sit on couch and he noticed your discomfort. A month ago that would have pleased you that he noticed.
Like Acorn said, think about the positives. You will be much better today I am sure.
By the way thanks for letting me vent last night. I feel better now that I understand I am simply accepting the sitch and detaching. It's strange to not really care. I never expected it. I just hope the feeling stays and I don't digress.
Feeling a little sad this morning as a friend is burying his wife today and my nephew's girlfriend is going home to Kentucky for her burial. It's just so sad. These ladies had no control over their destinies. I guees this proves that all is in God's hands.
As for my move to MLC, doesn't seem to have been a good choice. Not much action there. I will give it the weekend then probably move to seperated forum.
Hope LL has a good day and I'll see you at Chuck's.
Ll..just checking in..thanks for your post..you are in inspiration to me..you have weathered alot this past year..and are stonger because of it.You have survived the very down times of not knowing if you would become the "norm" of single parenthood..the crisis of an affair..yet you have been able to accept your h for the good person he is. Something in your heart has allowed you to give your m another chance..is it easy..no..but you are getting there. You are wise and strong I am jealous of all you guys meeting at Chucks!!!! Sue
. Sometimes when H falls asleep first, it's my chance to do some things I wouldn't otherwise...like those late night snacks...no biggie, no harm intended, just a thang 
Of coarse, if she wakes up and she sees I'm on-line, then she gets irked, so I can't do it too often. 
Whoo hoo!