I also felt overwhelmed with grief and disappointment over squandering the gifts that God has given me in my life, and -- even though I felt His love and forgiveness, as I always do -- I also had this sense of how sad and disappointed He must be in us.
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I'd like to share with you some of my theology. God is infinite love. Infinite means "infinite." It doesn't mean going this far and no farther. It doesn't mean as far as the eye can see or as far as I can imagine. It means NO end.
What we do or don't do does not hurt God in any way. If we could hurt God, then God would not be infinite, God would be finite. God has NOTHING but INFINITE love for you AND mrs choc. God cannot possibly have anything else for you except that, because God IS that.
When I say things like this to people, they usually say, "What about God's Justice?"
To that I say, "We know NOTHING about God's justice or even if there is such a thing. All we know about is human justice and the human conception of what God's justice must be. Think about it. Do we really know any more than that?"
Yes, divorce is very sad. No question about that, but don't compound your misery by imagining that God is sad and disappointed as a finite human parent might be. As a parent you have something that I (as a non-parent) cannot imagine... and that is the love that a parent has for a child. When you're trying to imagine how God is toward your current sitch, or toward any sitch, concentrate on this love, and magnify it as much as you possibly can... and then multiply it times a google... and you'll have a tiny fraction of God's infinite love for you.
Please turn to hymn 412 in your red books and rise, as able.
