I was especially touched by the notion of "trusting with the heart...but not quite with the mind...yet". Rings true.
What a journey we are all on! What strength we have gained! Maybe we need to be patient with ourselves too...we will heal.
And LL about the midnight cookie run? Um, well, I do that myself . Sometimes when H falls asleep first, it's my chance to do some things I wouldn't otherwise...like those late night snacks...no biggie, no harm intended, just a thang .
Hang in there, your thread is an inspiration to us all.