ok so as a result of the other day with my getting frustrated with not knowing where h is he just two wayed me on the cell phone (I hate talking on that thing that way) to let me know he'd be leaving the office for a bit and then he'd be back to finnish up and what his plans where for the rest of the day...I thanked him...but realized I may have sounded cold...I just don't like the two way...so a few min later I called the cell and let him know I appreciated his call and wanted him to know...also let him know that I realize it may not have come across on the two way cause I just don't like talking on it.
h was just finnishing up an appointment...I appologized for the interuption...he said no problem that he'd call back in a few min.
so tell me this....why then if h is giving me what I asked for? letting me know his whereabouts...do I find susspision in it???
why do I sit and think..oh yeah your just calling to save your a$$ and cover....why do I sit and think the appointment he's in right now is really just his visit to ow's house??
will I ever trust h??
will I ever trust that it's for real???
how can I get there???
I ask for what I want... I get it... and it leads to more susspision.
