well I was doing good. I found out that she had the day off and went to the appartment while I was at work. She said that she took most of her things that she needed or left behind. I am at work so I can not get home to see if she took anything else. She said that she went to get the D papers and that she is getting a lawyer to help her file them correctly. I said that should get a lawyer just in case, she said that I didnt need to. All I have to do is sign the papers. I asked several questions, like how much it cost to file and that sorts. Then she said that we didnt need to go to court all I have to do is sign the papers. Then i told her this "I love you very much and im sorry that things came to this. U know that I dont want a D but I also want you to be happy even if its with out me, so I am willing to do this like mature adults. I'll sign the papers." Her reply "thank you". I replied back with "you're welcome, just dont forget me." I dont know what that means, just dont forget me and I dont know why I sent it. Maybe I shouldnt have sent it.
I started to cry a little but the tear didnt fall, maybe this is a new turning point for me. Part of me is very sad and upset and the other part is doing okay, knowing that the end is near. And all of my dreams with her are over...at least for now. I still believe that maybe someday we can get back together but maybe I shouldnt hold that hope.
So I was having a good day but now Im in the dumps...
