new here. Feel like dying

[ms ladybug]

I haven't send this yet, but would like some input.
First please read his email to me, a couple pages back.
Here's my reply. I'll totally scrap it if it's not good...

J,
I’ve read and re-read your e-mail regarding your “conditions”. I guess I keep reading it in the hopes that I’ll find a shred of emotion in it. It says nothing about where your heart is in the situation. It’s strictly business.

I’m sorry you made Tennessee a “condition” for reconciling our marriage. A non-negotiable conditions as well. I don’t think anything in marriage should be non-negotiable. Tennessee was one of the things I would have negotiated on too. Our marriage coming first, before talks of moving, then getting our ducks in a row academically and financially before moving.

The thing is, if we had a marriage centered on God, with mutual love and respect, I’d follow you to Timbuktu. However, you’re asking me to make a decision based on the marriage that we currently have. I would love to take the time to grow in our marriage, and learn to make Christ the center. To pray together, laugh together, and mutually love and respect each other…only then can I make a decision to move.

Again, I’m sorry that you made this a condition for reconciliation. But I can’t commit to this before we commit to us.