ok so I called...h talked to kids...h asked to talk to me...I appologized for waking on the wrong side of the bed today...h said well luckily tommorow is another opportunity to wake on the right side.
anyway...conversation longer than that obviously...still not hearing all the words I want to but they would just be words wouldn't they...guess what I needed today was a hug but hugs don't come through the phone...h said well I will be home tonight and you will get a hug.
I just want these feelings to go away!!!
good days and bad days...I guess we all have'm key is to make the good out weigh the bad and lately they do...but a good thing is that h and I have been doing a lot of cuddling lately and when my head is on his shoulder the spinning seems to stop at least for a while.
LL who's gonna go put on the boots and head out into the muck of melting snow in the yard with the kiddos.
