don't ever let your spouse know that you are feeling insecure...unless you can deal with their ambivialance about it...
I really am sooooo annoyed with this man I call my h.
he apparently has little to no understanding of my feelings...
why I bother to share them with him is beyond me...really beyond me...
every thing just needs to be peachy keen and happy go lucky for him...you cannot have a down day...you cannot have a day that you feel threatend or insecure or susspicious or anything like that...
h does not understand why I would feel this way???? is he that dumb???
hellllooooo h??? you had a long term r with another woman???? during the day while I thought you were working and you think I should not be susspisious....knowing that you still have feelings for this woman...that perhaps those feelings were stronger than the ones you had/have for me??? this woman lives in the area you work...this woman is a customer....and I shouldn't at all every worry???? you go out to lunch with buddie unknown to me and I shouldn't worry??? you tell me your doing office stuff and mind you only tell me after I ask what your plans are and yet the two times I try to contact you during the day (wich you'll note I dont call you anymore) you aren't there...so you had an appointment...but you didn't tell me...you don't answer your cell phone...
when I ask you to help me by telling me your plans for the day...especially if I ask (which I don't usually) could you be a tad more specific...if I am asking it is most likely out of insecurity and want to know...it troubles me to be told "office work" to then find you not at the office.
h responds with ambivilance...no appology...simply
I'll try to be more specific...I had an estimate... I'm working LL, that's what I do this time of year...some office work...an estimate or two during the day...etc...
got no where...got to a point where I just wanted validation for my feelings....and h couldn't/ wouldn't give it. instead he was patronizing listing every step so far of his day...I asked not to be patronized...it got no where...h is now in a mood as such that he can't get his office work done...gee h d'ya ever think that maybe I can't focus today because of how I feel and perhaps foolishly expecting you to help me with that....we might have not ended it this way...but now..you are mad...I am mad...and I've told you to not bother comming home cause I don't want to talk to someone who is as ambivilant as you.
