Quote: If my W said tomorrow that she loved me, wants to spend the rest of her life with me, and would like to get M again to demonstrate this love...I'd still be wary...even though I'd love to hear it
right there with ya on that one jethro..
Quote: So what do you think it will take, LL? I'm lost too...
unfortunately for me I feel it would take for h to despise ow..see her for the snake she is..not as a victim of his advance but an oprnly willing baiter who preyed on him. and that I know will never happen.
for h to take a more active role in the repair...in more than just the day to day bits but to actually be able to openly discuss feelings with me on some what of a more regular basis.
for h to confide in me some of his fears, thoughts, feelings etc.
for h to more regularly tell me about his day...the whats, where's and who withs...
for h to initiate more outings with me or as a family..
and as sick as it may sound..I think that if ow started calling me...I'd feel better about things...
I don't know if any of these things would actually make a difference or not...but I'd like to think they would...
some of them are there but the more important ones to me (ow) are not.
I know I am not supposed to make it be about ow...but for me it is the hardest part...I know the r had it's problems...it was much easier to attribute them to his business...and now he is changing that...but to know that there was this ow all along...really puts a thorn in my side and I hope it will go away some day but I don't know if it will.
we've all heard the stories of long long long term affairs..who knows???
Quote: So what do you think it will take, LL?
time... time... time, paitence...patience....paitence...
they say time heals all wounds...but most wounds will leave a scar. as time goes by the scar may be less and less visible sometimes to a point where we have to think to remember how we got it...I wonder what type of scar this wound will leave??
I just don't feel very possitive today and don't know why....perhaps nothing...perhaps h's cell phone call in the bathroom while he was getting dressed that I overheard ending with "alrighty then" and I believe "talk to you later" I just don't hear h as sayin alrighty then to buddie...it was more sweet...and when I asked what he'd be up to today...he said...I'll be in the office...no definition of...working on x,y or z....h was not at the office when I called earlier..and as far as I can tell isn't there yet...that is simply an assumption based on the fact that he has not logged on to the net to check the weather wich is something he typically does many times a day...and I haven't been bumped off once yet....so...the mind she wanders...where is h...what is h doing...
as mentioned on my prior thread...h had talked about dunkins crossaint sandwiches...so I bought some crossaints and made bacon egg and cheese crossaints for him this morning...he said thanks but it didn't get the reception I had hoped...ya'd think he'd appreciate the fact that I did it soley based on his mentioning of liking them and getting them often...gee maybe mine weren't as good as the nasty microwaved greesy crap the little cutie at dunkins must give him.
see how easily I get annoyed and let the mind wander...
