Quote: I just want all this crap out of my head...
I want to enjoy the life I have...the h I have...the home we have...the family we have...
I just want it to go away...
when will it go away???
That same echo is reverberating strongly in my ears these days.
So, we go from knowing we can't trust our Ses to knowing we must if we're going to move on. I wonder if there's a trigger to this trust event or whether it's just so gradual over time that we barely notice it? Problem is, there are several dynamics at work here and trust is only one of them. - Does my S want to be with me? - Does my S love me? - Will my S repeat this behavior in another X years?
It's almost as though several things need to come together before I make this leap of faith, and I'm not sure what those things are. If my W said tomorrow that she loved me, wants to spend the rest of her life with me, and would like to get M again to demonstrate this love...I'd still be wary...even though I'd love to hear it...
So what do you think it will take, LL? I'm lost too...
