I was really disappointed last night because I was in an amorous mood, and the H was so exhausted that he fell asleep before his head hit the pillow. All that grooming and pretty underwear gone to waste:) I really need to work on being ok with these things and not assuming that they mean something. That is, pre-bomb, I would not have given a second thought to no ML on a day when I clearly showed interest, but now, everything seems to mean something. I really need to work on letting go of the hypervigilance b/c it is not healthy.
This morning, H started the car for me and put on my fav radio station. He is such an acts of service guy, so I know that this is his way of being loving (but I love physical touch and words of affirmation). I, however, am attempting to add acts of service to my linguistic repertoire, and I hope that I start to "feel" it soon.
