I am feeling good about what's happening, maybe it's because I want to feel good and haven't for so long, I am now getting addicted to feeling good, lol. But I also feel great because I know I can survive w/o my H if he chooses another path. I always thought I could, just didn't know I would actually have to face it. Knowing it and facing it are two different animals.
Everything changes when you can put a name and a face to what is going on - You can say "He's going through MLC", rather than "My H is crazy... I've NO IDEA what is going on". Lots changed with both myself and my W when she was diagnosed with depression and started on medication.
You sound way more positive recently - Don't over think the reason, just enjoy it and realize that it's yourself that is brining you happiness.
