Thanks Nikki!!! the back rub was definitely a suprise. I know I really need to GAL again. It's just really hard when a lot of ideas need money, or babysitting, etc. At least the gym has already been paid for, but I do have to pay $2 for s3, but that's not horrible... but I usually take him to the fun place (aka chickfila) and then we spend more money.

okay, really I don't mind using money... it's fun... but I know we need to budget tighter, especially when my H just like to buy things, like a laptop the other week. silly man.

I didn't take that to be negative or scary, about H walking out, that's a good way to think about it. Although I almost can't even imagine it, which is really weird huh.

I think maybe I could imagine better if I pretended everything was free. ;\) I definitely would like to take a dance class... maybe I could do salsa? but that might not be a good idea, cause don't you have to get pretty close to the guy??? I'd actually like to do creative things, like take pictures, or paint, but usually those things just come to me like an urge all of the sudden. like my music. I would also like to get with a band and work on my music too. my friend has been dealing with his own M problems, the guy who recorded my demos, and hasn't gotten to finish it, so I'm kinda stuck there a little bit.

I definitely want to get in shape though. So I think that will be my first goal.

Me 33 H 34 S9 S3
M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs)
EA/PA 1/2006
DB 5/2006
H wants D 6/2006
H wants ME 8/2006
H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006
H erased OW off phone! 2/2007

"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."