My H left yesterday for his trip. One of the things that I've been doing lately that I never did pre-bomb is that when H travels, I used to want him to call me all the time. And I most certainly wanted him to call me when he got back into his hotel room at night. And sometimes that wouldn't be until midnight or later so I would stay up late and worry.
Anyway, now when he travels, I DON'T want him to call me when he gets in. It works much better for us. That way, i don't "wait" for his phone call and I sleep better. And he feels less pressure to check in with me. So, we talk in the morning and in the evening. That's a 180 for me.
Just trying to stay the course. BUt it's not without slip ups. The other day, we were talking about his trip. He is in Orlando from Monday to Wed. Then he said he was going to Miami. I questionned him because he had initially said Ft. Lauderdale. Not knowing where in Fla all these places are, I started digging in, saying that they're nowhere near each other. He took out a map and explained that they are close and that the person he's meeting with has a territory that goes from Ft. L to Miami and that she had suggested flying into either place.
Then he said, "you need to lower your senses". By that he meant that I am so on guard. I said, "i'm sorry. That was not the right reaction". He said, "I dont' know why you do that". I said, "yes you do. And I am working on it. I am sorry". He said, "Fair enough" then came in for a snuggle. So, that was a good interaction that could have gone bad. He needs to know that I am trying not to let my mind go places, but that it won't happen overnight.
Anyway, just journaling my thoughts.
Married 9 years Kids 5 and 6 Bomb 2006 H back and forth for a year M now back on track
