You've got it pegged. I'd called home to say goodnight to my daughter and logged on here as we talked for a couple minutes, I had replied to your post about being there for her instead of walking out. I decided that I needed to get my ass back home, called my wife back, she was not happy with the idea, mostly because of the confusion it could cause with our daughter. I said screw it and drove home anyway. only to have her break down and tell me that the reason she can't stay with me is that I have no control of my compulsive/addictive personality. I don't do very well at controlling me, and have seemed to always have something going that I nearly obsess over, be it a hobby, a task or what have you. I can see that drinking was just one of those things and may explain why I haven't been experiencing the cravings so often associated with stopping drinking; I've replaced it with extreme dieting/exercise/walking/calorie counting. I think I'm beginning to see some light. Thank You Dom.
And Thank You to Bec if she somehow reads this. I'm going to try and get better.
Thank you.
Me:46 Her:40 Daughter:7 She Dropped Bomb:10/7/07 She Filed Papers w/State:10/30/07 I Left Home:11/11/07 I Moved Back In:11/13/07 My Outlook: I want nothing more than a future together and will do whatever it takes. Her Outlook: Been too long coming, I'm done.
