Once again it has been a while since i posted , just want to let you know that i am doing ok, life is actually quite good lately . It's very strange but i can feel myself moving away from the fantasy land that i have been living for the last 15 months, i can actaully breathe again. I have felt this way before but it never seem to last very long and then i found myself back on the rollercoater again. I really think that i have stepped off it this time and just watching from afar. I guess this is what everyone talks about when they say "letting go". I am now prepared for the fact that my husband and i will most likely be divorced within months and have accepted this, it's not what i ever wanted but i understand that my husbands choice, is what it is. I will probably always love my husband but my choice now is to be happy.
D3 is doing great, we are having so much fun together . I am the luckiest person in the world to have such a beautiful little girl, she is such an angel and i thank god for her every day .
Hope everyone is ok
Nicky
Me 34 H 33 D3 together 10 years married 2 years Bomb 22/8/06 (I feel empty) OW involved
, just want to let you know that i am doing ok, life is actually quite good lately 
. It's very strange but i can feel myself moving away from the fantasy land that i have been living for the last 15 months, i can actaully breathe again. I have felt this way before but it never seem to last very long and then i found myself back on the rollercoater again. I really think that i have stepped off it this time and just watching from afar. I guess this is what everyone talks about when they say "letting go". I am now prepared for the fact that my husband and i will most likely be divorced within months and have accepted this, it's not what i ever wanted but i understand that my husbands choice, is what it is. I will probably always love my husband but my choice now is to be happy.