I agree, it is defiantly a rollercoaster. I am taking it one day at a time, though some days are better than others. Really the only time I feel bad is when I’m at home by myself. We got the apartment together, she still has things there. I did however pack up all of the pictures, poems and anything that reminded me of her. I recently took my ring off and took our picture out of my wallet. I try to get family and friends to come over and hang out but they really don’t want to. I mean only live about 20 minutes from where I used to live and all of my family and friends still live there. Now that I am paying for everything myself I really don’t have the extra cash to fill up my gas tank every 4-5 days, so that is why I really don’t drive to see them. I really only think about her and us when I don’t have anything on my mind. I mean I think about her when I read my books, esp. DR. Her family is employed by the same company but he is a sales rep and is out in the field, well I saw him twice last week here at the office. We talked for a little while, every time I see him he asks me how I am and that he is sorry that is daughter is doing this. He wishes that he can do something to change her mind, so naturally I hear and think of her. Yes I have a copy of the rules at work on my cube and another copy at home. I read them everyday. I like that quote “Believe half of what you see and none of what you hear”, I am going to write that on the bottom of the copy of the Rules.
I like to think that is a good sign she hasn’t filed yet but I think the only reason she hasn’t is because she hasn’t been able to get into town. The last time we spoke she said that she isn’t changing her mind and we are getting a D. She is making herself happy again, I thought about saying sleeping with other men makes you happy but I didn’t. I just said that was the most important thing. I was really nice to her..
