I just thought that if you were religious, that might help. Instead of praying for H to come home, you can pray that His will be done, and the strength (like you said) to accept that.
The tricky bit with that, is being willing and open to EITHER way.
A lot of times, when people start praying like that, they are doing so, because they think that they need "help" to come around to one side or another. They judge the success of the prayer, on whether their mind has become accepting of what they think that they "should" be accepting. Rather than keep open eyes and heart to what God really has in mind for them.
My current status: june 2006. Wife ran out and filed D. Finalized Jan 11, 2010, after 12.5 years M. 3 wonderful sons caught in the middle
