Walk Away Wife - My Sitch

[bhopeful]

Thank you all for the kind words of wisdom. I'm sorry that I took so long getting back to you. I spent the weekend GALing. Actually I like to think of it as GAPLing (Getting a Positive Life). Some of my "friends" would have me drowning in alcohol and at the bar every night. While this would get me out of the house and meeting new people, it's not what I want to be. So, I spent Friday night with my brother watching movies. Saturday, I helped a friend install a car stereo. Sunday, I went to church and had dinner with my parents. My WAW tried calling me Saturday night, but I was watching a movie with a friend, so I didn't answer. She tried again Sunday afternoon, but again I didn't answer. I finally called her back Sunday night and she said that she was just calling to see how I was doing. I tried to keep it light, but stupid me forgot all of the DB rules and brought up some changes that she made to her myspace page (See my earlier post). She claimed that her new relationship status of "Swinger" was an inside joke with someone and didn't have anything to say about removing me from her top friends. I replied by telling her that I was done logging into the website. Realizing my mistake, I backed off and just left it at that.

I also made the mistake of bringing up some money that she owed me. She hasn't set up a bank account, so to pay bills she deposits money into my (once our) checking account and I write out the checks. She had two bills do last week that I paid without her having deposited the money. While I had the money to cover them, it left me without much until this Friday. I felt that I had to bring it up and she got pretty defensive about it.

I also asked her about taking her out to dinner for her birthday (Friday). She said that she had a friend coming into town that night, but maybe Saturday or Sunday. She suggested earlier in the week to which I responded that I was busy every night. So, we'll see if we actually go out. It's been three weeks since I've seen her.

I told her last night that I hoped that she was finding peace in her life and that I was making positive changes in mine. I haven't told her all of the things that I've been getting involved in since that isn't what DB tells you to do. I'm also not sure how to show her the changes in my life since I don't see her and don't have much contact. In some ways I feel like last nights conversation was a failure on my part. I feel like I back peddled a ways. There were no ILYs last night as there had been the week before. Maybe I'm reading too much into it. After all, she was the one who initiated contact with me, so she must have been thinking about me...
Peace to All, B