The things we are passionate about don't suck us dry. They feed us. If you arrive home more energized than when you left, you've got passion.
I have to remember this. I allow things to become all consuming, and shut off other areas. Compulsivity and perfectionism come to mind. Too bad I never seem to get mania as an option!
My new work involves putting together different modalities of Wellness. I like the fact that I am doing this with my psychologist friend from college. She herself has been feeling isolated in her one-to-one work world, and our connection now is helping us both grow. Kind of like this board...you need others. We've been working on this in the background of our lives for a long time now, and it's time to bring it forward. Scary and exciting. But concepts/ideas like this are a dime a dozen here, so I am keeping my main source of revenue( investment stuff) intact. And I have my H on board with me...he's coming with me to look at two spaces this week, and he wants to help me make this a reality.
I am able to do this now because the kids are getting bigger and in a place where I can let go more; I am having major nostalgia for their " little years" but I am adjusting...well, I think I am anyway. I feel the sadness of passage of time and change, but the depression is under control. My brother is handling more of the day to day stuff regarding my parents, and God bless him for that. I am not avoiding, however, and am going down with the family for Thanksgiving.
As far as filling a void, I do think the process of losing my father has driven so much of my behavior, from confronting my marital prioblems to re-engaging in a career. And I think that's all right, as long as it's not solely pain that is driving all this, but the deisre to grow and bring out the best.
I miss him so much.
Anyway, Journey is growing up, and I thank you all for being there, as you go through your own life journeys.
